too many things goin through my mind that i don`t even know how to explain it... and it`s not that i`m depress or anythinn ckus i`m happy most the time, i really am...
buh sometimes when i`m by myself... i just start thinking.... and i don`t know....

wow, i jus suddenly remember i have a xanga... well it been so long since i updated this thing... n when readin my old blogs, i realize how much i changee.... i guess i used to be so emotional... it's funnii how u read the old stuff you wrote and you go "whoa... that was me?!?!" hahah well so how`s life??? good you can say... ii guess sometimes i`m still kinda ckonfuse... about life n everythin u know? it's sckariee to thinkk that i`m growin up so fast... well exciting, yet sckariee ckus one day imma be an adult, n i`m not even sure what imma do with life... oh wells i guess that`s still in a couple of years

&& him? i don`t even know if there is a him... ii don`t think i believe in "the one" no more... i guess mabey ckus of what happened? i don`t know, i just don`t believe in it no more... mabey one day i`ll change my mind? i don`t know... since i thought i loved but now i realize that it wasn`t even love it wasn`t anythin close ckus if it was love, i would beh still thinking of him right? buh when i wrote the first sentence of this paragraph... i was thinking of another him.... buh i know it`s not love either, mabey infatuation? or mabey less than that... buh to me, relationships aren`t as important as much no more, there are more important things in lifee like family and friends

my family? i guess my mom and i are gettin along better

and my friends? i don`t know i guess a lot of them changed... buh then i made new friends too... i guess it`s true when they say people come and go ckus everyone move on & if yooh don`t move on, you`ll jus get left behindd so ii guess i have tooh move on and now i learn thatt the onlii person that can alwaiis be there for you is yourself, ckus everyone elsee, even if they`re there for u sometimes, they can`t alwaiis be there for you ckus they have their own life & own problems tooh... buh the friends i have right now, they`re the ones i can be me around and i`m glad i found them :]

hahah i sound so deep in this blog....

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i jus dont know anymore... if you really care or not.... kus... you said you'll be here.... but where are you now....?

damn... so fuk up... always putting meh down over stupid shiet... n blamin everythin on me... they think they understand but they fuken don't.... always have to diss meh....

n those mothafukkin beetches thinkin that my parents think im their lil angel... my asss beeetch.... im not like ur fuken self makin up fuken shiet to ur mom... damn act like a fuken 5 year old tellin ur mom shiet that doesnt have nun to do with her n makin up shiet.....

fuk dis i dont give a fuk whats gonna happen to u mothafukkas... i dont give a fuk if u get beat up or if ur gonna fuken tell ur mom like a fuken 5 year old kus i dont kare no more if my mom beetch at meh she beetch at meh enough alreadi.... so beetches dont fuken think u can use my mom against meh ... kus damn u beetches did too many shiet too meh that i dont fuken care no more... yeh heard??? mothafukkas i hope u beetches get fuk up...

and no im not okay thanks to what you mothafukkas did